Saturday, April 14, 2012

THE NEVER ENDING TWO WEEKS CURSED

God, I couldn't bear with the challenge you gave me anymore. I rather give up than suffer from heartbreak in every relationships that involved. I must be cursed from the two weeks spell  cause it seems almost all my relationship didn't last long and ended in two weeks time.

I felt stupid to fell for a guy so easily with his little caring action and trusted him for what he said. In the end, I found out that I was just the second option, nothing more than that. I even tried to save the relationship while he was busy going after the girl. Only I found out after that.

A guy whom can fell for two girls at the same time, he could fall for the third and fourth, so I have to let it go and cut ties with him. No point stuck on a bloody shit who play with feelings.God, please don't send me meet those idiot guys again and again. I am so enough of it seriously.

I know I ain't lovely, smart, pretty or any hot girls. I am just a stupid, silly dumb girl who believe people who come to me will accept for who I am and treat me sincerely and faithfully. An ordinary girl whom was hoping for love and tried to move on from previous relationship.



After all the things that happened, I would not believe in love anymore. I don't need a men who hurt me for nothing that I have done. I don't wanna be fooled by someone who doesn't love me for who I am. I don't wanna believe words that been said unless you really prove to me.

I am all alone now. Not even a true friend I have. I know I am annoying sometimes cause I was lack of attention. I would like to keep a distance from people around me after this. Not gonna attend any events in anytime soon. If it's better, God you could bring me to heaven to restart my life.


7 comments:

  1. You are not alone, believe me. By the way, let me share with you this entry,
    http://www.rungitom.com/be-a-force-of-the-awesome

    Hope to see you smiling and happy again. :)

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  2. you always have us la.. cheer up pls

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  3. Cheer up girl. I understood how u feel. :-) the only person you cna trust in this world is your own family. #truestory. Never ever trusted guys' sweet words and some action. Be patient and observe longer. Well, sometime it doesnt work by observing longer tho. LOL. Pray to God. I believe God will send you a better man in future! God blessed.

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  4. huh?! omg?! 2 weeks spell? =S
    cheer up! and dont ever got that kind of thinking.
    there's no restart in life!

    anyway, you still got friends and family!

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  5. The 1st thing on a guy's mind - sex. True story. If you can build a valuable friendship, then there may be hope of it being a relationship. Unless, he's in your "friend zone".

    Nevertheless, never let your guard down and be strong. Take it as a lesson learned and never to forget. God has his ways of teaching, but more importantly it's how we see and remember his lessons.

    P.S.: Sorry to sound preachy. I'm no Christian but I do believe in God.

    P.P.S.: One thing I've learned through relationships is don't keep it inside. Let it out. Plenty of girls to comfort you and good men who're here to listen. :)

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